坦然面对。。

一个星期了，依然当一名代课老师。没有时间表，没有教课，也不知道自己会教什么科目。。 是工作效率慢，还是校方想让我们就这样过完这一年？
上星期五，和其中一班的学生谈天。 他们问我一些连我自己都无法回答的问题，比如：老师，你教什么科目？ 老师，你教那一班？ 老师，你会教我们吗？ 这一些问题，只有一个答案。 我不知道！！ 一切等校方安排！！ 如果这星期，我再进去这一班代课，他们又问我同样的问题时，我该怎样回答他们？？

明天。。

明天即将是我人生中的另一个转变。。 即将到槟城名校任职。。 心情，七上八下的。。 不知道如何是好。。 问过了那间学校的年轻老师，他们都说环境不错。。 学生很聪明。。 老师的工作量不会少。。 带队和搞讲座是免不了的。。 也会有很多Duty.. 现在，什么别想。。 先用这一个月半的时间来适应环境。。 明年开学时就要开始“工作”了！！

明天，很快就到了。。。。。。

感谢您们。。

今天还是马来同胞的开斋节。。依然是公共假期。。 我却在路上看见一位清道夫。。 忙着清理路上的落叶，垃圾。。 他的一举一动让我会想起一群被州政府颁发奖状的“大水沟勇士”（忘了是不是这样称呼）。。 他们憋着气，冒着生命的危险，去清除那些水沟里的垃圾。。 无可否认的，他们神圣的工作，为我们带来了很多便利。。 我想了想，清道夫的工作也是很危险的啊。。 他们站在马路上，如果遇见那些飚车族。。 生命有可能就这样丢了。。

我承认，我们的社会还是处于保守的思想。。 别说跟一个陌生人说谢谢。有时候，甚至和亲朋戚友也没有那么客气。。 如果有一天，我有那股勇气，我想我会走向前，向清道夫说声：Terima Kasih! 只怕清道夫会以为我是傻的！！

It's been so long since....

It's been so long since my last post.. Time flies without my notice.. I'm back to my hometown and work with a private sector while waiting for letter from the department.. Life is bored especially when I back from the training in Johor Bahru.. It was a nice memory for me actually.. Met with new friends and so thankful that they were very helpful when I need their help..

Holiday is just around the corner.. After the holiday, I might receive the letter and I'll know where I suppose to work.. Hope that I will get the letter as soon as possible before I really feel lazy to work.

Chinese New Year is close...

So happy that Chinese New Year is just around the corner... Can't wait for the days.. To fulfill my needs, I'm actually started to listen to CNY songs ad.. Really nice...

2010

正当每个人都在欢迎2010年的到来，我只是躲在家里，和其他3位同屋友一起度过。。可怜吗？不！！ 比起那些留在海外，没法回家的朋友，我幸福多了。。 只是，人总是不知足。。 得到后，却想得到更多。。 得到更多后，又想得到比较好的。。。 所以，从现在开始，我要知足。。 因为，知足才能常乐。。 快乐，就是我2010年的希望。。 有了快乐，什么难题都会容易解决。。 心情好，幸运之神也会多眷顾着我。。。 有了幸运，人生的旅途就不会遇到阻碍。。。

Tanjung Malim

A place where i spend most of my time nowadays.. Really don't feel to go back there.. I've felt lazy to do assignments.. I have not even finish either assignment that was given by lecturer..

Anyway, life must go on to make sure that I'll get what i want.

Holiday again

Extra one week holiday.. Good or don't? Nowadays, I became lazier and lazier.. Too much of holidays..

Went for Twilight New Moon.. Really like the story... Planned to buy the 3rd n 4th book in December... Then will finish them as fast as i could...

Monday will go for karaoke.. When will i start to do my assignments then? Conclusion, holiday is not good for me!!

当今的孩子。。

现在的孩子，接触的东西与以前的孩子有很大的差异。。 就连现在的卡通片，也存有爱情成分，有些甚至连亲嘴的画面也可看到。。 以前，Tom and Jerry 是孩子们的最爱。。 现在， 许多市场上的漫画书刊里都有色情的成分。。 吸引孩子们去购买。。 再来，当今社会的孩子都受宠。。 电视节目任由你看。。 只要成绩不会太烂，万事可商量。。 孩子们接触爱情片，偶像剧等等的机会就高了！！

六年级的学生，已经有第四个女友，在一位母亲的眼里会是一件好事吗？我真的不敢相信。。 那位母亲是怎么看待一为乳臭未干，还没见过世面的小伙子和同学拍拖。。 他怎么还停留在百多年前的思想？？ 而且，校方知道后，怎么处理这件事？没通知双方家长？要不然，怎么女同学的家长还被蒙在鼓里。。 到现在还不知情。。

Well, I really enjoy my life this two days.. Went to Mid Vally to watch "Christmas Carol" - 3D version in the midnight.. Reached my room at 3am.. But enjoy the movie and the feeling of Christmas..

The next day, went to Mid Vally again.. Planned to watch 2012 but there were a long queue and the tickets were selling fast.. At last, went to shopping with my roommate..

After the two days of enjoyment, i have yo finish up one of my assignment that have to pass up on Tuesday.. I don't have any idea in my mind now.. Really have to figure it out by tomorrow...

Beautiful Tuesday?? Not really..

Within 2 hours lecture, she gave us 2 "homeworks" that we need to do so that will be able to answer her questions on next Monday.. She told us that she will use the old teaching style.. Now, i knew, she really meant it..

The feeling of Monday

Remembered that i will have a photo section with classmates today.. Woke up early to makeup so that look better and different from normal.. Unluckily, it was canceled and postponed to next Monday..

This is only the first... Next, came 3 assignments in one day from 2 different lecturer.. Quite tough but should be able to finish up before the date line..

The only happiness.. Chatted with my student in MSN.. He was nervous to face his secondary school life.. Not even know which school will he go yet.. As his teacher, I've tried to advice and gave him some guidelines.. He is the only student who will ask me bout the progress of my assignments.. Care for me.. N the way he typed was not childish but mature..
So happy to see that he had change a lot in thinking.. Knows how to think for others too.. As, he said he is a Valentine's Day baby.. He will celebrates his birthday with his family even though he has a girl friend one day.. I bet that his mother will feel happy if she gets the opportunity to meet me.. I will tell her what was our (me n my student)conversation in MSN tonight..

Got to start again...

We can't change to fate.. Beginning of the year,I was not in the list to undergo a teachers' training course.. Middle of the year, July, I got the offer n I'm actually following the course for more than 3 months.. Quite enjoy the study life again.. Although need to do assignments and examination..

Met a lot of new friends here.. Again, my name was mentioned by Dr. Suppiah for around 3 times.. or my name is too easy to remember??

Life will change after we do something.. One's life cannot be the same as others.. Continue to fight for your dream is the only way to get the life you desire for..

注定还是失误？

等了一年。。结果还是没有得到进师训的机会。。是不是因为选错科系了呢？大学时念的科系并没有让我有优先权得到辅导科。。。 很多人说华人应该申请华文系。。。辅导科是会收比较多马来人的科系。。。 我怎么不知道有这样的“规定”呢？

是不是人比较不幸时，发生在身边的事情都是坏的？？

经济不景气，身边家人的工作岗位得从以前的五天半制降至现在的四天。。 如果遇到公共假期时，一个星期只工作三天。。

新年又快到了，只剩下三个星期了，不知道经济是否会好一些，政府有会不会给华裔们带来好消息呢？我指的是新年期间，蔬菜，鱼类，肉类等等的价钱会降低。。。 咱们一起等着瞧。。。。

It's been so long

Im back after more than half year i stopped to write blog...

After back from Sabah, I manage to get a job in education field which i didnt get high pay n bright future... Now, im stil in education field but this is related to the government.. My mother n my teacher told me that is better to become a teacher.. EASY! but now, not that easy anymore as got a lot of paperworks to do... Anyhow, is still better than any job out there...

Started to miss the time i hang out with friend's during in Sabah. So, last month, we manage to gather together for 2 days in Genting.. Although it was short, but it meant a lot.. We chatted, we "perli", we had pillow talk.... Those would be my nice memories....

Long journey...

I've finished my practical training in NRK.. I've finished my viva and passed up my report to my lecturer... I've packed my things and ready to go back to Penisular Malaysia.. But I don't think im ready to search for job and start to earn $$..

Fact is still fact.. After finish study life, everyone must start to work.. I knew it would be a very long journey to go.. When we are walking while the time pass, we will meet more people, more things that will cheer us up or even make us down... This is LIFE...

Life is short... Time is limited!! Let's start to set our goal n achieve it... We can make it !!

Viva..Viva...

Viva..Viva... Viva is coming lo.. That means my training in NRK going to end soon... Life.. Life just passed do fast without take any rest... Im going to graduate soon... But before that, have to pass my viva 1st...

hope that my viva will be smooth n i can score high marks for that lo...

pray for me la ya.. My viva is on 9 July 2007, 11.15-11.30am at Bilik Seminar 1, SChool of Psychology and Social Work, University Malaysia Sabah.... hahah... pray correctly ya...thanks....

Time pass by..

Time passed fast.. Another week gone... Next week will be a easy working week coz I will have 4 days public holidays.. But after that, i will not FREE anymore.. I will attend the training program with the training manager in NRK.. We are going to train those trainees who are interested in Food & Beverage..

Im not the trainer, I will be the helper who helps to conduct a small test, a helper who distributes paper or notes to the trainees, a helper who helps the training manager during the program.. Sounds easy but I think I will enjoy it coz I can learn more than just sitting in the office... ;-)

Training

Hey.. Im back again.. I have done 1/3 part of my training in Nexus Resort Karambunai (NRK).. The life there was boring.. Everyday i woke up at around 7am.. Started to get ready and took 8.30am shuttle bas to work.. After finish my dinner at around 5.45pm, i will take the shuttle bas again to go back to campus.. Then i will start to listen to fm or even watch entertainment show which i saved from my friend before she went back to her hometown..

During the first week when i first went to NRK, I was regret that i didnt't choose to do thesis.. Coz the room im staying now is very small.. There is no table or even a chair in the room.. There are only two shared cupboard and two double decker bed in the room.. I was very upsad n honestly, I almost cried at that time..

Now, I was there for one month and started to adapt to the environment there.. I keep on reminding myself that I will stay at there just for 3 months.. After that, I will lezve n back to Penang.. So, what i wanna do now is just concentrate in my training n try not to think about the facilities in the campus.. Maybe, I will feel better by thinking in that way..

Im back from her wedding

Last week, my beloved close friend get married with a guy who loves her so much.. I went back to KL n Melacca just to attend their wedding dinner..

Seriously, I had my time there with the others friend.. We took a lot of photos although I haven't get all from the bride's father.. I think 4 days are not enough for me to get closer to my friends coz I didn't meet with them nearly 1 year since I come back to Sabah to finish my degree..

Anyway, we are going to meet very soon after my graduation coz I really hope that I can get a job in Penang..